The side effects of weight loss surgery are not just physical, they can be mental/emotional as well. The one that I struggled with the most was realizing that I didn’t know who I was anymore! I would look in the mirror and not recognize the person looking back at me. My brain couldn’t keep up with the physical changes that my body was going through so rapidly. I felt like I had an identity crisis – who was this new person?
Not only did I look different, but I felt different and I was finally able to do anything that I wanted physically. I no longer had restrictions on my life due to my weight and size. I could fly without a seat belt extender, I could ride horses again, I could even dream of zip lining through the rainforest canopy one day. All of these things were foreign to me and it felt really strange to me to even allow myself to think of doing these things!
I began writing in a journal and trying to get my head around my new freedom and lack of limitations. I had spent almost my entire life living with limitations due to weight. It decided my career choice, held me back in my career, and kept me from having the confidence to be the person that I had always wanted to be. The chains of being super morbidly obese were lifted but now what? I didn’t know how to change my thinking and become the person that I had always wanted to be. If I needed clothes, I didn’t have to be limited to catalog and Internet orders – I could walk in to almost any store I could afford and find something that actually FIT!
Going through a rapid weight loss journey is not just about physically losing the pounds, but your mind and who you are has to adjust as well. It can take time and it is helpful to have a great support group backing you up and helping you to adjust to your new life. It really is a new life in so many ways and though it can be stressful, embrace the freedom you have been given to be who you always wanted to be!